Big Moves

I’m a creature of habit by heart, but to a certain extent, aren’t we all? Yes, some people are more spontaneous and are considered the risk takers, but that has never been me – well until this year. I’d say I’ve taken the most risks in the past year than I ever have in my entire life. I broke up with someone I dated for almost 5 years, I left a job I loved, I bought a car, I moved to Colorado and started a new job, I moved into an apartment and lived on my own for the first time, I finally started this blog that I’ve always wanted to do (but have been too scared), and now I am saying yes to about every opportunity thrown my way. And yes, to some this may seem small or even ordinary. What’s so special about that? So many people move or break up, but for those who know me, know that this is very out of character, or should I say out of character for that version of me to make such drastic life decisions and changes and be pushed so far outside of my comfort zone by my own choice. But all I can say to that is I’m damn sure glad I did. Moving to Colorado felt like such a huge daunting decision, but why? I was so stressed and crying pretty much every day leading up to making the final choice and even after, wondering if it was the right thing to do. It felt terrifying to leave all my friends, family, and home for something so foreign and new, and for what?

I realized that this decision seemed so heavy because I was mourning the life I was leaving behind. I would never be the same version of myself that I was in that moment. I would make new friends, see new things, change my perspective, fall, learn, and grow. It didn’t mean I couldn’t come back, but it just would never be the same. I knew that deep down, this was the push that I needed to launch me into my next chapter of life. Nothing is permanent but nothing also stays the same. Life moves on in the places you leave, whether you’re there or not.

Now that I have moved, I instantly felt a weight lifted off my shoulders. I was afraid my imagination and creative mind got the best of me, as I tend to romanticize and day dream up life and scenarios in my head. And that’s what Denver felt like, a big ol’ dream that was quickly becoming a reality. I realized that change is good and actually needed. That moving really isn’t that big of a deal. That I would be open to moving somewhere else even after Denver. That being single in your mid-twenties in a new city is so exciting.

This catapult has given me the confidence and momentum to keep trying new things and putting myself out there. There is so much of the world to experience, and being in a larger city has really shifted my perspective. We all are after the same things in this life and we all have our problems, and somehow, walking my dog around at night and looking out onto the city, I felt peaceful and so insignificant. My problems suddenly seemed so small. There are so many people and so many stories all being written at the same time and it’s such a beautiful realization. At the end of the day, take the risk. But don’t do it for any other reason or person than doing it for yourself and your own personal growth.

Here’s to making BIG MOVES!